new skin

just trying out a new skin..a bit flowery but i kinda like it

playlist for today

Today's task is to finish marking test 1..let's have some music! today's selection is a mix between oldies and lite n easy listening music. but of course must include cat stevens and m nasir :)
okay2..let's begin marking

pening

sejak pregnant with my 2nd child ni, asyik terganggu je kesihatan..dulu2 with qyst cuma pedih hulu hati je, tp yg kalini asyik pening kpale, selsema n batuk2 je. last week was the worst. starting with pening kepala on monday n wednesday. sampai gi klinik mlm rabu tu..tak tahan sgt peningnya. then selsema n batuk lak..skrg ni br ok selsema. harini pening kpale balik..tgh berdenyut2 ni..tp tak kuat sgt. ptg ni ada perjumpaan with big boss lak tu. kalau tak,boleh la melelapkan mata sekejap.

tapi rasanya ketidaksihatan ni ada kaitan dgn cuaca jugak. kat sini sekarang musim panas yg melampau2.. kalau tghari tu,panasnya sgt terik..agaknya mungkin tu faktor jugak kut. yer la,tgh2 hari biasanya akan drive ke taska, nak melawat tn puteri qyst kat sana. walaupun die dh stop bf, saja jer,main2 dgn die waktu tghari..itupun kalau die tak tido la. mungkin sebab kena panas time tu,menyebabkan pening kpale..

ape pun, still alhamdulillah, syukur dah preknen utk kali kedua. an unexpected pregnancy. i imagined before this, since it took me 2 years to get my first puteri, yg second would not be easy too.. tp rupa2nya Allah nak bg rezki awal, Alhamdulillah la..i hope it's a putera this time :) and alhamdulilah, like the 1st pregnancy, i don't experience any morning sickness, what so ever. cuma heart burn and headache ni je..

ok, time to go

airmata untuk palestin

Tadi majalah 3 buat paparan tentang gaza post war. tergerak lak hati nak tengok..seama ni tgk kat berita je. ni wartawan maj 3 sendiri yg turun ke sana buat liputan. berani sungguh dierg..

start2 je dah tunjuk keadaan mangsa kekejaman israil. first yg die tunjuk ada seorang wanita 40-an yg melecur badan sebab kena bom fosforus israil laknatullah..tunjuk betapa payahnya die nak bangun dari katil, lepastu dia menangis,mengerang kesakitan..memang jelas nampak menderitanya dia kesakitan. tak tahu la dah berapa lama die menahan kesakitan macam tu. aduh,sedihnya tgk..tak sedar air mata mengalir.mmg kesian sgt tgk. lepas tu tunjuk seorang budak yang terlantar sakit. die perlukan rawatan lanjut dan perlu di bawa ke mesir. tp malangnya tak dibenarkan...menangis2 maknya..namun pesakit2 kat hospital tu tak kisah wartawan ambil gambar, interview sume. dierg kata nak bg seluruh dunia tau betapa kejamnya israil. yes, your message is received.

lepas tu wartawan2 gi melawat tempat2 bekas serangan israil. memang dasyat. ada satu tempat tu, di dinding tembok, bukan shj berlubang kesan tembakan, malah ada dinding yang bertompok-tompok hitam. sekali pandang macam kesan tembakan, tapi rupa2nya cebisan2 daging para as-syuhada yg bertaburan setelah hancur diletupkan bom..kejam sungguh israil ni.. selain dari tu, sekolah latihan polis pun dibom..ada satu tempat tu, kawasan lapang, 50 org polis palestin syahid sekaligus selepas dibedil bom. ada ditunjuk jugak serpihan bom2 tersebut. rupa2nya bom dierg tu very high-tech dan dilengkapi kamera..so their target was not random.mmg dierg nak musnahkan kawasan tu..pastu satu penemuan yg memang Subhanallah; wartawan2 tu tejumpa cebisan tulang,dipercayai milik salah seorang anggota polis yg syahid. namun bila salah sorang wartawan tu cium,tulang yang sepatutnya berbau busuk, tidak berbau langsung! mungkin tu bukti kesyahidan anggota polis tsbt. selepas tu dierg kebumikan tulang tu..

satu part yg menarik, bila wartawan tanya pada slh seorang polis sukarelawan kat sana,' palestin menang atau kalah dlm perang ini?' tanpa hesitation polis tu jawab 'kami menang, berkat ketabahan kami'. then wartawan tnya lagi:' tapi israil declare yg dierg menang?'. polis tu jawab 'mereka kata mcm tu semata2 utk meyakinkan askar mereka shj'.. i agree 110% with his statement.

lepas tu krew maj 3 pergi melawat ke sebuah pasar. Kental betul semangat org palestin ni..selepas perang, teruskan kehidupan.life must go on.. pasar, kedai sume berjalan seperti sebelumnya. dieorg walaupun diberi pelbagai bantuan, tetap tak bergantung dan mengharap sepenuhnya pada bantuan semata-mata. terus mencari rezki walaupun barang yang dijual tu sikit shj. di npasar tu, ada seorang makcik ni apabila diinterview, die kata dia berdoa agar Allah turunkan burung Ababil untuk menghancurkan israil.. aamiiin..

next week ada lagi smbungan kisah di gaza ni. tak sabar nak tgk..memang menginsafkan. sedih tgk nasib saudara2 kita di sana. kita kat sini, take me for example, selalu takes things for granted. kadang2 lupa yang nikmat, kekayaan dan kebahagiaan yang Allah beri ni mungkin akan hilang satu hari nanti..bersyukurlah kite dgn apa yg ada sekarang.sesusah2 kita, ada lg saudara yg berpuluh kali susahnya daripada kita..lepas ni sy nak belajar supaya lebih menghargai dan bersyukur atas nikmat yang Allah beri ni..InsyaAllah.

ps:-orang di palestin berusaha untuk hidup, berhempas pulas berjuang untuk mempertahankan tanah air..kita di malaysia yg aman ni? berebut2 kuasa, berebut negeri. hmmm......

Finding a new skin

I'm on a hunt. Hunting for a new skin. There's a lot of skins out there, but i still can't find the right one for me. found a possible candidate yesterday, but it cannot be used..huhu.

skin? kulit? kulit ape yg dicari ni? actually, i'm on the hunt for a new skin for my blog. dah boring dh dgn skin yg skrg ni.. tibe2 terinspirasi utk menukar skin selepas tgk kecantikan skin blog miss D (sempat plak org di jepun tu mengedit blog ekk). so until i find the right one, my blog will be a bit kelam kabut,n berubah2 skin nya. :)

Doa utk saudara di Palestin

"Ya Allah, selamatkanlah umat Islam yg sedang sengsara di Palestin serta diseluruh pelosok dunia akibat dari angkara mungkar dan kekejaman musuh musuh Mu. Peliharakanlah mereka, lindungilah mereka, dan jadikanlah kami semua hamba2 Mu yang bertaqwa..." ameen

PhD: To go or not to go

Next year giliran PhD for both me and husband dah tiba. huhu..i still remember my entry earlier this year that no matter what i must go for PhD next yr. well...that was before Nurul Qystina came into my life. Now, i'm not sure to go for PhD or not next year.

The reason why i'm so berbelah bahagi is only one: whose going to take care of my baby when both me and hubby are studying?? PhD is very serious business and need full concentration and i definitely want to do well. but friends from oversea said it definitely not easy when both parents are studying: not easy for the parents and the children. often, studying couples needed help to babysit their children. Free of charge nurseries are available in UK, but only for children 3 years old and above. Some couples bring their sis/mother/relative with them to oversea. that is a good idea, except that i don't have any younger sister, my mom and mom in law are unable to come with me and i don't have any close single female relative. so the only alternative i have is to hire a nanny/helper. but that's out of the questions since my list of requirements for a nanny/helper are too long that i don't think anyone could fill it! hehe.

So i'm now in a dilemma.. actually i already made a decision: to follow one of my motto; family comes first. But i'm still not sure it's the best decision..i guess the right thing to do now is to pray and ask for guidance from the Almighty. Whichever path that Allah SWT allow me to take, i'm sure that's the best for me and my beloved family..